take me as I am
or leave me in despair
now I will rest here
now here is nowhere
let me hold your hand
you and I forever to be
blanketed by our destiny
me and you know no other road
it turns it curves it falls apart
but we always make it home
where we belong in each other’s arms
you will believe a boy can change
for his girl he will endure the pain
the scars and torture of mistakes made
or never will he see the sun again

never again
will I let your smile
fade to darkness

mistakes were made and people were hurt.
lost, i feel i was, lost. my dream faded, became a nightmare.
then i became the nightmare.
now i walk with the guilt and shame.
and it did not stop there.
another person i brought in and used and created a lie inside a bubble.
but i could not forget the dream.
the dream still lingered in my head.
the dream and my nightmare.
not just the nightmare i created but the one the dream was living.
i wanted so badly to reach out.
why oh why did i not reach out?
i missed the dream.
i ached inside for the dream.
my living nightmare is still there. i can never hurt the dream again.
she is my dream again.
i must hang on tightly.
i will not let go. i will not hurt the dream.

rainy nights
cloudy days
laying here alone
in this haze
thinking of you
and where you play
promise me
that you’ll stay

don’t wanna be
forever alone
don’t wanna be
forever alone

come with me
don’t hesitate
the two of us
until the end of days

we will be
forever in love
we will be
forever in love

I promise you I’ll keep you close
I’ll keep you safe
I will stay brave
until the end of days

we’ll never be
forever alone
always to be
forever in love

be this true beauty
the one who owns my heart
you are my every thought
I believe in you
and all the days to come
you are the only one

believe in me still
and let me be the one
who will catch you when you fall

these deep waters run still
waves beating as rapid
as my heart beats for you
I won’t let you drown
I will save you

believe in me still
and let me be the one
who will catch you when you fall
and let me take you there
it’s safe here in the sea
forever we’ll be free

I still recall the day
my heart stopped beating
that moment you passed by
and landed in my life
that feeling still lingers
and grows stronger by the day
although it may have faltered
this love was too stubborn to die
and instead chose to rise through ashes
from a fire that never stopped burning
a flame that shall forever flicker
deep in my soul where you belong
so that you may force the man I wish to be
to wake up from his dreams
and land in this reality
where his dreams do not hold up
for those dreams are irrelevant
without you in them.

crying in my hands
again and again and again
almost seems so senseless
to feel this fucking useless
and listen to your excuses
for all I know
it was a game all along

so I commence to suffer inwards
until we give ourselves a rebirth
time to move forward
you already took the pill

burned so deep into my veins
our souls are intertwined
shelter myself in the dark
sheltered because the light is too much
are you even watching now
have your eyes wandered off
do I still have your heart
was it never mine all along

shall I commence to suffer inwards
until we give ourselves a rebirth
time to move forward
you already took the pill
if it happens next time
can we give love a try

from this distance
I see but a glimpse
but I can see the pain
and I will heal
your heart again
if you let me back in
to heal from inside
to walk beside you
by the pond you like to hide
passed by so many times
from where I hear your cries
and I am here to help
to drown them away
to nothing but memories

I suffer through
these days without you
longing to be
in that time that will come
as soon as the sun falls
rises
thirty three and a third
more times
postpone the end of the world
so I may enjoy
more days with you
the ones that feel like minutes
so fast
so far
from being here now

the morning clock at 3:33
sirens in the distance
ships crashing at the sea

and I was wrong
the setting sun never lasted long
the day I thought had risen
fell too fast
the last message you sent
nearly sent me over
after all this time
was the time a waste
or a reminder to me
that things are never as they seem
so I sit alone
an island to myself
no world around my mind
and wrap these fantasies
in a bubble
and dream my dreams
until they are popped
by reality

kill the stars in the sky
so they fall and distract your eyes
allow me to steal a kiss
to start this brand new day
my line of vision hopes to see
a smile as your eyes fall on me

the day is hardest
when you don’t know what you want
at the end of it all

let us ride together
let me be the one to take you there
play along with the chorus
turn up the volume on my soul
run away from the falling stars
let them burn up the ground
before we rise to the sky

the day is hardest
when you don’t know what you want
at the end of it all
was it inevitable all along
that this fire would stop

go or stay
whatever you desire
my place is here
protector of your fire
no loss of my heart
my fondness for you
go or stay
do it because
it is what you wish to do